Can I be any more stupid?

     Well I got invited to go out for a friend of mines birthday and my birthday as well, last night and I went. I knew I was going to drink. It was a ton of fun...we went to two different bars and I met a ton of new people and honestly being drunk is so fun. So anyways...I came home and puked my guts up and my dad was very angry with me. He was yelling at me and all I remember is him saying I was out of his life. Not sure....how true that is. So yeah, I screwed up again. I really have no feelings about it. I don't regret it I just feel bad putting my parents through it. So yeah, I mean i really don't think it's a big deal. I just feel bad I hurt my parents. They have done so much for me, I should respect them more. :/ I guess I have a lot of resintment lately torwards them. I don't know. I'm at my grandmas house tonight and I'll go from here to work tomorrow. I guess I might see my dad tomorrow, kinda worried about how that is going to go. I can't wait to see my therapist I miss her and It will be so nice to talk to someone who understands. I hate being surrounded by people who are so clueless. I mean they try to understand, but it's just so nice to talk to people that really understand. I think that's why I've been so lonely lately. I just feel so alone and there is no one to talk to that understands. I feel like no one wants to be around me. I don't know maybe it's that chip on my shoulder again. Oh well.  Anyways...I guess that's all I have for now. :/

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