GOOD!
So, like, um, things are going really good. :) Ever since I turned my life over to God it's like everything is being taken care of. I pray a lot and I feel bad like I'm asking for too much. My dad says it's okay and I guess it is, I just feel selfish. I am praying for other people too and it's like my relationship with my family is so much better after I've been praying for them lol. It's so cool how it's all working out. Like I was worried about having a ride to IOP which is my day rehab program and my friend who also goes, is giving me a ride and he found out he has to go longer so I have a ride for longer and by the time he's done I'll be able to drive my car. I was really worried about going back to work and so I prayed and prayed that God would make it bearable and guess what, work is going great. I'm happy. I don't have cravings anymore. I feel content. Life is going great. :D
I'm a little worried because I keep having dreams about liquor and pills. I don't know why....It concerns me. I don't want to drink or use but I keep dreaming about it. So it worries me. And I haven't had time to work on my fourth step which is really important. I heard that some people can relapse if they stop at their fourth step. :/ So, I work a double tomorrow and have a two hour break so I'm going to work on it during my break. Also I'm worried because I haven't been able to go to meetings so like that sucks, because I really need my meetings. I went to the 6:30am meeting today and I left early because I was so sleepy...and then I skipped IOP today. So I feel like if I'm not careful I might relapse. I really don't want to but I heard it happens really quick if your not careful. So I need to kick myself in the butt and make myself go to the early morning meetings and finish my step 4. I really need to meet with my sponsor but she said we can't meet until I finish my fourth step so, I'm going to try and have it done by Sunday. Okay well that's all I have tonight. God bless everyone! :D
